In the light of this personal tragedy that I’m now working though, and all of the thoughts it brings to my mind, I’m finding this song to be a great comfort.

Life is something that we, without a doubt, take for granted. We are not promised or guaranteed tomorrow, or even the rest of today. Are you ready?

I know and trust that Carol was a believer who had a strong and beautiful faith in Christ.
I also walk by faith, but I know I take my life for granted, so I hope and pray that I’ll be ready to meet my Savior when the time comes.

“I hear Your voice and I catch my breath.
‘Well done, my child, enter in and rest.’
Tears of joy roll down my cheek.
It’s beautiful, beyond my wildest dreams.
I want to run on greener pastures.
I want to dance on higher hills.
I want to drink from sweeter waters in the misty morning chill.
My soul is getting restless for the place where I belong.
I can’t wait to join the angels and sing
my heaven song.”


“93 million miles from the sun.
People get ready, get ready, cause here it comes,
It’s a light, a beautiful light, over the horizon, into our eyes.
Oh, my, my, how beautiful.
Oh, my beautiful mother, she told me,
‘Son, in life you’re gonna go far, and if you do it right you’ll love where you are.
Just know, that wherever you go, you can always come home.’
240 thousand miles from the moon.
We’ve come a long way to belong here,
To share this view of the night, a glorious night.
Over the horizon is another bright sky.
Oh, my, my, how beautiful.
Oh, my irrefutable Father, he told me,
‘Son, sometimes it may seem dark,
But the absence of the light is a necessary part.
Just know you’re never alone. You can always come back home.’
Every road is a slippery slope.
There is always a hand that you can hold onto.
Looking deeper through the telescope,
You can see that your home’s inside of you.
Just know, that wherever you go…
No, you’re never alone..
You will always get back home.
93 million miles from the sun.
People get ready, get ready, cause here it comes,
It’s a light, a beautiful light, over the horizon, into our eyes.”

“It is well with my soul…”
You know, those words often put me to shame. To say them and to understand their meaning and apply it to your life means that you are totally and completely trusting God. You’re letting go of it and giving it to Him. As a Christian, I like to think that I am trusting God and His purpose for my life, but as a flawed human being who is in need of His grace, redemption, and salvation, it shames me to realize that I don’t fully put my trust in Him quite as often as I think.
It’s hard!
But nobody ever said that it would be easy, and it’s something that we all struggle with.It is something that I’m struggling with even now. I’ve been through so much emotionally and mentally even in just the last 6 months, and it was not always easy to see His blessings in the darkness. I’ve been living in my current city for about a year and a half and this last part has been so terrible that I would like to forget about it and never think of it again.
But I think back to when I first moved here over a year ago…I was so excited. I had prayed about it, I had visited, I was ready because I knew in my heart that my longing to be here was instilled in me by the knowledge that it is where God wanted me to be. There was a purpose, even if I didn’t know what it was yet–even if I didn’t stumble across that purpose for 5 or 10 years! Now, as I’m working through a bit of a depression and preparing to take a break and leave for a while, I had this thought…what if God put me here to go through this trying experience?Not to torture me, because He would never do that, but to teach me. To force me to look at the strength of my relationship with Him and fortify it.
That is a really, really hard one to swallow. My automatic thought in response to that is, “Well it freaking sucked, so thanks a lot!” But that shouldn’t be my response…My response, from my heart, even if it’s with tears in my eyes, and the sting of pain still tangible, should be, “Okay.I see what You did there, God. And it is well with my soul.” It is so hard to make myself look at this recent time that I went through and see the good that has come out of it. So hard. But, as I’m being reminded, I will continue to see the benefits from it for myself and for others in my life, for the rest of my life. God will never give me something useless. It was an experience that has made me stronger and given me a foundation for helping others who might be in a situation that I can now identify with. And, most importantly, it has drawn me closer to Him.

“I see Your face in every sunrise.
The colors of the morning are inside Your eyes.
The world awakens in the light of the day.
I look up to the sky and say, ‘You’re beautiful.’
I see Your power in the moonlit night,
Where planets are in motion and galaxies are bright.
We are amazed in the light of the stars.
It’s all proclaiming who You are.
You’re beautiful.
I see You there hanging on a tree.
You bled,and then You died,and then You rose again for me.
Now You are sitting on Your heavenly throne.
Soon we will be coming home.
You’re beautiful.
When we arrive at eternity’s shore,
Where death is just a memory and tears are no more,
We’ll enter in as the wedding bells ring.
Your bride will come together and we’ll sing, ‘You’re beautiful.’
I see Your face, You’re beautiful.”